Monday, March 1, 2021

Day 23

1:20 A.M.

I think I'll go the rest of the day without checking the internet, period.  I'll allow myself a one-hour window after midnight to check the news or blogs or Wreddit or forums or Twitter, but I won't check anything outside of that one-hour window.  So I've got a little less than 23 hours to go.  YouTube is okay, just not any other sites. 

So if the day has 288 chunks of 5-minute intervals, I've already gone through 16 chunks, meaning there are 272 chunks left to go.

There weren't any surprising stories on Wreddit, but I still spent almost half an hour scrolling through everything.  There was a post about WWE's viewership in India, and a lot of people tried pushing the 'Dave Meltzer is racist against Indians' narrative, but it got a lot of pushback from other people in the thread, so maybe that narrative is running out of oxygen.  There was another thread where someone was calling out some PWTorch writers for their comments about Sasha Banks, but that thread had 0 upvotes.  The top thread was making fun of Cody Rhodes's neck tattoo, which is a fair point to make.  I didn't notice any other threads about the WON awards aside from one thread where someone was recapping the latest Observer Radio.  There's on Redditor, NextChamp, who used to recap the Observer Radio shows and he did a bad job of it and got a lot of blowback, and he was in that same thread warning the OP and saying he still got message from trolls.  His exact words were "If this is an ongoing thing OP be forewarned. I'm STILL getting bizarre messages from SCJerks and other trolls after stopping my attempt at these recaps."  I have a hard time believing that.  It might be true, but I still have a hard time believing it.  This was the guy whom I thought might actually be a reverse-troll.

1:25 A.M.

Alright, I just have to go 271 more chunks without checking the internet.  I can do that.  I'm not just talking about Wreddit and Twitter.  I mean the entire internet.  

1:45 A.M.

I need to close some tabs.  Here's a thread from SCJerk I found interesting.  Here is another thread from SCJerk where someone is pretending to care about the state of Fulham FC and the Jacksonville Jaguars.  One of the things I glean from reading sports threads on Reddit is that a lot of guys are really knowledgeable about how their local team's owners are treating the team.  And it's one of those things that causes a disconnect in me.  How is it that a commenter on Reddit--rather, how are all commenters on Reddit this knowledgeable about the flaws of their local sports team.  It seems obvious that they would be--all sports fans are passionate about how their teams are doing--but it still doesn't make sense.  It's like there's this trough of knowledge that everyone drinks from and I'm completely oblivious to, and if I can just piece together what it is that other people are doing that makes them sound knowledgeable (and I'm NOT implying they're faking it), then I could do the same thing, but better.

2:05 A.M.

Here is a Wreddit thread where a guy is complaining about one of the people who posts match clips.  There are a handful of prominent people on Wreddit who post clips of matches, and one guy (FuzzyWuzzyMooMoo) if by far the best at it.  

2:20 A.M.

You know what?  Fuck it.  I just won't check the internet again.  Because right now I'm trying to close a lot of tabs, and each day I'm just going to wind up opening a bunch of tabs again and having to close them, and it's a never-ending cycle.  There are some things I'm gong to check, obviously.  I'm going to check personal things.  Things that are relevant to my own memory.  But I'm not going to pointlessly expose myself to more information.  

Sometimes I just go on the internet and think, "Why are these random people on Reddit or the F4W Board more successful than I am?  I'm better at figuring out systems than they are."  So what is it that I'm missing?  What is it that I'm doing wrong?  Why would I not be as successful as someone else if I'm better at figuring out systems than they are?  I just have to take a wild guess, and the wild guess is that my brain doesn't mesh well with the internet.  And I don't think it's the internet, per se.  It's the phenomenon of being exposed to different opinions and different comments and remarks from a panoply of people.  And I can still be pissed off about the fact that these random people on the internet are more successful than I am.

3:55 A.M.

You know what I have to do?  I have to go a full five days without checking the internet.  After 5 days, there will be too much information to catch up on.  Let's go until 4 A.M. on Saturday.  That's 1,441 chunks.  

4:00 A.M.

1,440 chunks left to go.  If I can make it 1,440 chunks, I know I'll be free forever.

4:05 A.M.

1,439 chunks to go.

10:10 A.M.

1,366 chunks to go.

10:20 A.M.

1,364 chunks to go.  The goal is to reach a point where it's no longer feasible to keep up with the minute drama of the day.  I can still check the news of the day, but are there really any good news channels?  CNN and Fox News will just repeat the same talking points throughout the day.  My TV doesn't get NY1.  I do get local CBS News on Pluto TV, but the WiFi is so bad right now that I can't even get the home screen to come up with the Amazon Fire TV Stick.

10:25 A.M.

1,363 chunks to go.  I'm going to head down to the bodega and see if they have any earbuds.  And on the way, I can drop a few empty cans and bottles into the recycling bin.  They really pile up in your room faster than you think, and it just adds more clutter.  And then the recycling bin itself is overflowing because there's only one on the whole block.

10:30 A.M.

I didn't want to watch New York City local news in the winter, because it would be the middle of January and you'd see it was 45 degrees in the middle of winter and you'd be like, "God fucking damn it, the world is ending."  But it did snow a fair degree during February, so I feel a little bit better, and now it's March, so it's getting towards spring.  I got the Fire TV Stick working.  They have De Blasio doing the NYC vaccine update, maybe because Andrew Cuomo was accused of sexual harassment.

11:25 A.M.

1,351 chunks to go.  I was checking the internet all day yesterday, but today I'm not checking the internet at all.  I'm watching TV, though, and the WiFi is better.

11:55 A.M.

I weigh 211.4 pounds right now, which is around the pace I was at a few days ago, but still above my all-time blog low of 210.2 pounds.  Maybe if I can get under 210 pounds, that'll be a nice resting point.

12:05 P.M.

1,343 chunks to go.

1:00 P.M.

1,332 chunks to go.

1:20 P.M.

1,328 chunks to go.

1:25 P.M.

1,327 chunks to go.  I figure I should be losing weight, right?  I weighed 211.4 pounds about an hour and a half ago, so in theory I should be about 0.2 pounds lighter by now.  I should be at 211.2 pounds.

1:30 P.M.

1,326 chunks to go.  I haven't eaten anything today.  I did have some milk from the minifridge, though.

1:35 P.M.

1,325 chunks to go.  10 minutes ago I wondered if I had lost weight.  You're more likely to lose weight after waiting an additional 10 minutes, I assume.  But what if it doesn't actually work that way? 

1:40 P.M.

1,324 chunks to go.

1:50 P.M.

1,322 chunks to go.

2:30 P.M.

1,314 chunks to go.  I've had nothing today but water and some milk.  Just keep adding chunks.  One chunk at a time.

2:35 P.M.

1,313 chunks to go.

2:55 P.M.

1,307 chunks to go.

3:00 P.M.

1,306 chunks to go.

3:20 P.M.

1,302 chunks to go.  I still haven't consumed anything today except water and some milk.  I should be lighter than 211.4 pounds, but you never know when the scale is going to act up and produce an incorrect reading.  I want to make it one more chunk.

3:25 P.M.

1,301 chunks to go.

3:40 P.M.

I was 212.0 pounds in my t-shirt and shorts, and when I took those off I weighted 210.4 pounds.  I don't think the t-shirt and shorts actually weigh 1.6 pounds combined, so the scale tends to tip a little bit off in both directions.  Sometimes it makes you heavier.  Sometimes it makes you lighter.

3:55 P.M.

Soundtracks:
4.) Hamilton

4:00 P.M.

1,294 chunks to go.  

4:05 P.M.

1,293 chunks to go.  There's a construction truck somewhere nearby.  I can't see it but I can hear it.

4:10 P.M.

Oh, shit, Star Wars: The Force Awakens is on TNT right now!  Losing weight and keeping goals is easy as pie when Star Wars is playing on TV!

4:35 P.M.

"Hey kids, don't do any drugs until you're 18."
"So when we're 18, we can do drugs?"
"Sure, I guess."

4:40 P.M.

1,286 chunks to go.  I still haven't eaten anything today.  The milk in the minifridge has a sell-by date of March 1st.  Does that mean I should drink it all today?  I know the sell-by date would imply you can keep it in your fridge for another week without it going bad, but it's already been in my fridge for nearly a week, and I just don't have faith in Derle milk to stay fresh for two weeks straight.

5:10 P.M.

I'm at 211.0 pounds right now.

5:15 P.M.

1,279 chunks to go. 

5:30 P.M.

1,276 chunks to go.

5:45 P.M.

1,273 chunks left to go.  I still haven't eaten anything today.  I feel like most days, now, I'm not eating anything until 5:00 or 6:00 or 7:00 P.M.  But I'm not really losing weight.  The other day, I got a bacon cheeseburger with french fries from the Korean market, and the idea was that it was such a big dinner it would fill me up and I wouldn't buy anything from the gas station later that night.  Except I did go to the gas station, and I bought a pack of Peanut Butter Cups, along with some PB Stix (sp/) being sold at the counter, and a can of Pringles.  The cheeseburger came in a plastic container, so what I did was chew up the Pringles and then just spit them out into the plastic container, and I get the feeling that's a sign of an eating disorder in some people, except I'm severely overweight and clearly I don't have an eating disorder.  I don't do that very often, but this was one of those times when I really wanted to chew on food.

5:50 P.M.

1,272 chunks left to go.  I was 210.2 pounds a couple days ago, and I ballooned up a pound.  So what I shouldn't do tonight is buy a bacon cheeseburger with french fries, plus a pack of Peanut Butter Cubs, plus a little box of PB Stix, plus a can of Pringles.  If I buy all of that together, I might gain a pound.

5:55 P.M.

Alright, I'm going to get dinner now.

6:35 P.M.

Right now I weigh 212.2 pounds in my clothes.  I got chicken and rice from the Halal cart for dinner.

6:40 P.M.

1,262 chunks left to go.

10:00 P.M.

1,222 chunks to go.  I fell asleep for a few hours.  I want to follow along with the Raw results, but there's really no good YouTube channel that helps you do that.  There's a guy with a channel named Wrestling Daze who does a livestream watch-along, but he's always reading comments from the chat and he's just got this annoying British voice and he doesn't really narrate the action much.  His channel is only good to watch if you want to get an idea of what match was occurring a few minutes ago because he has a little graphic/chyron at the bottom that he updates with the current match.  There are a few other channels that post highlights, but the highlights are all cut up and edited in a jarring way.  I can't check Twitter or the F4W site.  Raw will be over an another hour and then the official WWE YouTube channel will start uploading clips.

10:05 P.M.

1,221 chunks to go.

10:45 P.M.

I did the Tuesday crossword in a little less than 15 minutes.  I had to guess random letters for the last fill.

11:05 P.M.

1,209 chunks to go.

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